May 10th, 2006

self portrait (escher)

reconciling memory

I can never remember the word "reconcile."

In fact, nine times out of ten, if I'm struggling for a word, that's the one I'm looking for. Not because it comes up so often, but because I'm able to remember words which aren't "reconcile" better than words that are.

You'd think it would stick. I recognize the situation, think back to other times I've faced it, other ways I've had to describe the term or convey it's meaning so someone else could tell me. But in the moment, I can't remember the answer they came up with.

Nor, I should add, are my friends and family any use. I tell them "At some point in the near future, I'm going to forget a word and rely on you to remember it. That word is reconcile." But then when it comes up, they only have a vague memory of thinking that was a joke they didn't get.

If this post seems familiar, it's probably because I've made it before, hoping the "Memory" feature of LJ would save me next time. Didn't work then. No reason to think it'll work now. But that's the theme, isn't it: I never learn.