July 7th, 2003

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the rest is all follow-through.

Lauren sometimes comments on how refreshing it is that I can just throw myself thousands of dollars in debt within a week of paying off the credit card, and it doesn't even phase me.

Not sure it's true anymore.

I just finished paying off the second of three credit cards this morning. I should, in theory, be able to finish the third one next week. And I have to tell you, the thought of financial stability is far more appealing to me right now than anything I might buy with my newly cleared credit.

But more than that, I want nothing hanging over me. These monthly payments play into every decision I make. Which brings us back to this:

It's Monday, so my job must be in crisis.

Nothing new to report on that front, except I've got specific places I'm desperate to be now instead of here.
  • Comic-Con is going to hurt, as every plan I've based my year on was leading to me having a submission in one of their animation festivals. (My living conditions took some drastic turns this year, and all progress towards meeting that deadline basically stopped in March). But, my older brother still wants to go, and I guess there are worse family obligations to be stuck with.

  • Siggraph's coming up. Same deal, really. Though, I'd be traveling alone. There's still time to prepare something, but not at this rate.
These events are coming up fast, and I haven't requested the time off yet. It seems a lot to ask, given that I just took a week off from work unexpectedly. But I don't want to miss these in consideration of a job I can't stand.

So, I think this is what I'll be proposing today:

  • I finish out the pay period. This will get the company's monthly statements out, give me time to finish some reports I'm working on, and reduce my credit debt to almost nothing.

  • I'm taken off the payroll for the following pay period (June 15-31), and take that entire time away from the office.

  • They hire someone to replace me.

  • I return the week of August 4 and walk my replacement through the monthly statements, ensuring a smooth transition in this area they care most about.

  • If it's agreeable, I'd like to continue working for two weeks, turning this whole project of converting the Access database to a more sensibly designed SQL/ASP/HTML beast into a team effort, and familiarizing the new guy with the many interesting quirks of our system.

  • I leave with a clear conscience, and a final paycheck.
I think it's a good plan. So, if nothing else, that'll take my employers by surprise - I don't think they've ever seen a good plan up close before...
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God laughs at my willpower.

Ha.

No sooner do I type that, this shows up on my screen.

$799 pre-order bundle includes Premiere Pro, After Effects 6 (standard edition, no "production bundle" plugins), Adobe Audition (formerly Cool Edit Pro), and Adobe Encore (been drooling over this for months. Thus far, it's the only DVD authoring software I've read of with any real power behind it).

At least three of those run $600 individually, so it's a pretty good deal.

I mean, there's no Photoshop involved, but I was only going to end up with a second copy when the new publishing bundle comes out...
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Huh. Guess I wasn't kidding.

Just ran this letter past my supervisor. We talk to the boss tomorrow morning...

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Problems:
  • I'd like to spend more time at home to help Mom get back on her feet.

  • I'd like to earn more money to help Mom get back on her feet, and to better live up to what Dad always expected from me.

These are complicated by the fact that:
  • My performance is suffering, and I just took a week off without notice.

  • We're pretty much in the middle of everything.

I think I can solve most of this by going back to the "freelance graphics / web design" thing. It never paid the bills before, but I think that's more because I tried so hard to avoid new jobs. Actively pursuing 'em might have worked better.

The good side of this plan is that it doesn't ask more of you. You've all been very understanding and generous, and I don't want to abuse that. The bad side is it kind of leaves you in a lurch (see "not wanting to abuse that"), and I’ll feel unresolved if I don't see this project completed myself.


So, here's what I think would work for everyone:
  • Let me finish out this pay period. I still have some improvements I'd like to make to the impression log queries, and they'll be easier to implement as all this new hardware starts reporting in. Plus, ATM reports are about to come in so we'll have monthly statements to get through.

  • Take me off the payroll from the 16th - 31st. Leave of absence, no paycheck.

  • Take that time to evaluate candidates, and select someone to replace me.

  • If it’s agreeable with you, I return on the 1st and work alongside my replacement through the 15th – the conversion gets done much faster as a team effort, and statements go through without any nightmares.
Hopefully, this sounds reasonable. If not, I'm open to suggestion.

So, that's in motion now. Let's see what chaos ensues...
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