April 27th, 2001

self portrait (escher)

I don't get it.

I'm going through numerous stacks of papers right now which I've accumulated over the years, trying to get 'em all organized and decide what's worth keeping. There are some fully-planned projects in here, some random notes relating to things I can't remember for the life of me, and a few pages of thoughts so abstract I'm not even sure what language they're in.

example:
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4 6 5 3 2 1 7
7 1 2 3 5 6 4
Bonang Pelog
Genegyang

A: - 6 -3^ - 5u - 3^ - 5u - 2^ - 3u - 5 II
B: - 3 - 2^ - 3 - 2^ - 3 - 2^ - 6 - 5 II
C: - 2 - 1^ - 2 - 1^ - 7 - 1^ - 6 - 5



Singanebah
Ble: - 5 3 2 - 5 3 2 3 5 3 3

A: - 5 - 3^ - 5u - 3^ - 5u - 3^ - 6u - 7^u
B: - 6 - 7^ - 6u - 7^ - 6u - 7^ - 3^ - 2^u
C: - 3 - 2^ - 3 - 2 - 3 - 2^ - 3 - 3



A [7 3] VI   7 7 7 7
B [5 7] VI   2 2 2 2
C [5 2] VI   3 3 3 3

So, yeah. No idea what any of that's supposed to mean.
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self portrait (escher)

Why do I bother trying to keep a schedule?

My reservations are in for the Rotary International 2001 convention. And I have reservations.

I fought, I argued, I tried to route the budgeted dollars towards more productive uses (rather than send me on what amounts to a very nice vacation). We came up with a fair compromise, I guess. The project I wanted these funds for is going to happen now, but without enough money to actually do any good.

Mere moments after finalizing everything, I received word that my high school reunion is scheduled opposite that. Which is good and bad. I mean, I'm off the hook for another ten years - no point in making something of myself now. (Special offer: if you're charming, attractive, and feel like blowing a hundred bucks, you can go in my place and pretend to be me. No? Maybe I should put my invitation on eBay...) But I've lost contact with a lot of people, and my life's the emptier for it. I wanted to go.

(sigh)

The good side of this, I'm not going to poison by thinking about while the other stuff eats at me.
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